i wanna put myself so out of reach
that i feel like im actually living

i put myself so out of reach
that i keep dreaming
of people i actually miss

my mind keeps drifting to
things
situations
that mean so much

i dont feel numb
i like not being in constant communication

it feels nice

it feels like
every bit of communication means so much more

i dont have to worry
about communicating just for the sake of it
an worrying that i am
misleading
or putting myself in a situation
that i dont wanna be in

if wasnt fair of me
to say what i said
i wish i could take it back
i wish i hadnt done that

i wont do it again

but fk
why i am dreamin of _______
an why did it feel so safe
when they arent safe in the slightest

an no it dont mean i like them
like that
it just means

i long to feel safe
deep down