I like nice boys.

Bad boys
I see the attraction
but once you get beneath the surface
you know where the story goes.
boredom.

The shy quiet ones in the room
the ones that have a lot to say
but no one else is listening.
Standing on the edges.
I see them before I see anyone else.
They have the most interesting things to say
everyone is to dumb to notice.

If they let you slowly peal away the layers
you can find some amzing things,
they can take you on the most amzing journeys,
imagination, talents, stories,
love, compassion, sadness,
and even, sometimes a naughty boy
waiting to be unleashed
just for you.....

My to do list

i really do like u

no one else

just you

i love being an art student

but today i found myself fightin against the journey

i know i can only succeed if i let go

i need to find me

who i am

what makes me tick

but i dont wanna go down the roads that lead to somewhere i dont wanna be

it takes up so my energy an brain power

got 3 weeks off now

a welcome break

but i cant switch off

my mind is still full blast

the next project is completely self directed

totally up to us

BUT WHO THE FK AM I AN WHAT THE FK DO I WANNA EXPLORE WITH MY ART?

im smiling
im happy
im hyper
i can think straight
im at home
ive got radio one on
i need to do my uni work
big hand in friday
an i want it to be good
i want to enjoy the easter hols
knowing all the boxes are ticked
i'm beginning to think i got one thing wrong
doubt doubt doubt
but its not the end of the world
its fine
it wont kill me


now lets make some protest posters

Take me somewhere far away
Somewhere dark an deep
Twist and turn
tighten your grip
hold my breath
ridged
Stuck in time
Waiting
Holding
Ready for
For the slow release

i really fkin like u
i dont like feeling like this
ffs

i made cheese cake



cheese cake in a box

i didn't have a jug to measure the milk
so i had to guess

i didnt have scales for the butter
so i guessed

i didnt have a clean saucepan to melt the butter
so i put it in a mug in the mircowave

i didnt have a mixing bowl
so i mixed the biscuit crumbs on a plate

i didnt have a raised edge dish
so i pressed the biscuit into the centre of the plate

i didnt have a mixing bowl
so i mixed the cheese cake topping in one of the kids packed lunch boxes

i couldnt work the electric whisk
then i remembered i needed to plug it in

the topping thickened up to much
but i couldnt add any more milk

but i completed the cheesecake in a box
put it in the fridge

made a fried egg sandwich

ate it

the cake was set

we all ate it

success




now i properly feel part of the blogspot crew :)

silent scream

after looking through some blogs on here
i feel kinda outa place

i mean

i dont live the american dream
i dont have the perfect family
i dont have the perfect life
i will never blog about my christmas in great detail with photos
nor take photos of what i cook in my oven

i wont try to motivate anyone
can't even motivate myself

i have never scrapbooked in my life!

i have a car for sale in my front garden
its not my car
its my friends

whats a council house without a car reck in the garden?
or a skip
the skips not coming till after easter

but my back garden is full of junk

im really fitting the stereotpye
at the moment

i serioulsy need to tidy up
because the only thing i can find to write with
is a liquid eye liner
im tempted
but lets face it
its not gonna do the job

plus i might find my missin memory stick

i must remember that if i take things designed to bring me down an chill
it brings my mood crashing down too

an things that take me up, leave me up for days till i finally crash
sleep an get up again

but the up an crash is soo much better than the
down down down down DOWNNNNNNNN

playing poker an avoiding all uni work today

earache

i feel really fkin odd today
i feel lost
i feel knotted up
i feel down
i feel sad
i feel angry
i feel depressed
i feel crap
i feel sleepy
i feel hopeless

Ooooooooooo you make me wanna melt.................




if. only.
you. knew.

thats it im off to bed for some Zzzzzz

i really really hope...

that my missus will join me here...

i like her company...

its nice

an i like seeing the crazy things mothers say

an EVERYthing... i love reading what she has to share...

OMG this has actually made me HAPPY

Gee after setting up 4 blogs for one thing, to make it all organized and in place, an its not all messy messy shitey monkey, I HAVE A HEADACHE!! an feel.... AHHhhhhhhh better all at once..

mainly coz i allowed myself this little melt down area... where i can go melt an my facebook's wont roll their eyes... an i can just


ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

an its not work related.... an its just


MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

all slobbed out an not holding in my tummy...

u KNOW???

Let me take you by the hand and lead you somewhere loverrrr-ly